Thursday, October 19, 2006
The ride that never seems to end
Amy slept a lot today. Each time I called home throughout the day, I woke her up. She's been on prednisone for several days now and I guess I was looking for her to get a boost from it. I guess I was kidding myself.
I had a very uneasy conversation with Amy's oncologist today. I was driving myself to my appointment with my cardiologist when he called me on my cell phone. He said that he was calling me because Amy's last visit was a particularly sad one and he wanted to know how Amy has been over the past few days, how I was holding up and since I wasn't at the last appointment, wanted to know if I needed anything clarified. We talked about the fluid build up and that previous to the onset of that, I thought Amy was starting to turn the corner. We talked about a few other aspects of Amy's recovery when he said that he is concerned and that he expected Amy should have started to get better by now, but instead he has seen a steady decline in her physically, emotionally and mentally. And in spite of every test coming back negative for cancer recurrence, there is a very real chance that the cancer has returned and they just can't detect it right now. He's not saying that it has returned, but he is saying that given Amy's current state of health, that is a posibility. I asked about doing a biopsy to be sure and he said that given Amy's health, he wouldn't suggest it and even if we discovered that the cancer had returned, they wouldn't be able to use that information to change her course of treatment.
I'm not sure how to take what he told me...tonight has been a tough one for me as my mind has been mulling this over and over again.
Psalm 4:1
Answer me when I call to you, O my righteous God. Give me relief from my distress; be merciful to me and hear my prayer.
This is Amy's story as seen and told by me – V
I had a very uneasy conversation with Amy's oncologist today. I was driving myself to my appointment with my cardiologist when he called me on my cell phone. He said that he was calling me because Amy's last visit was a particularly sad one and he wanted to know how Amy has been over the past few days, how I was holding up and since I wasn't at the last appointment, wanted to know if I needed anything clarified. We talked about the fluid build up and that previous to the onset of that, I thought Amy was starting to turn the corner. We talked about a few other aspects of Amy's recovery when he said that he is concerned and that he expected Amy should have started to get better by now, but instead he has seen a steady decline in her physically, emotionally and mentally. And in spite of every test coming back negative for cancer recurrence, there is a very real chance that the cancer has returned and they just can't detect it right now. He's not saying that it has returned, but he is saying that given Amy's current state of health, that is a posibility. I asked about doing a biopsy to be sure and he said that given Amy's health, he wouldn't suggest it and even if we discovered that the cancer had returned, they wouldn't be able to use that information to change her course of treatment.
I'm not sure how to take what he told me...tonight has been a tough one for me as my mind has been mulling this over and over again.
Psalm 4:1
Answer me when I call to you, O my righteous God. Give me relief from my distress; be merciful to me and hear my prayer.
This is Amy's story as seen and told by me – V
# posted by Vince @ 11:28 PM 
