Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Where has the time gone
It’s been one month this morning since Amy went to be with the Lord. Life has been a whirlwind and just plain crazy as I adjust to filling both roles. Making sure the kids get to where they’re supposed to be, when they’re supposed to be there, keeping the house in order (still working on that!), etc. I know I’m putting a lot of pressure on myself, but my hope is that we will soon all settle into a rhythm. It’s hard…some days harder than others as my emotions sway from a longing pang to deep sorrow. I miss her so much and I always will.
Today a memory came to me…a memory of a conversation that Amy and I had about 2 to 3 weeks before she passed away. We had been talking about the see-saw news we had received from the doctors and she related that earlier in the day she had talked with her mother (updating her on what the doctors had told us) and during their talk, Amy told her, ‘Mom, I just love Vince SO much!’ I can’t seem to recall what the comment was in specific reference to, but we had many talks about her not wanting to die and leave me. Amy and I had our share of issues throughout our marriage, but God continually drew us together. Building our love for each other upon His foundation and through His love for the two of us until, with Him as the center, we could withstand any storm. And this got me to thinking; maybe the earlier tests of our relationship, hardships we endured and spats we had, were allowed in order to strengthen our love and commitment to each other, so that we might both be prepared for the final storm.
Oh, how I wish we could have had more time together…just a day, even an hour. To listen to her voice…hold her hand…run my fingers through her hair.
For the love of Amy - V
Today a memory came to me…a memory of a conversation that Amy and I had about 2 to 3 weeks before she passed away. We had been talking about the see-saw news we had received from the doctors and she related that earlier in the day she had talked with her mother (updating her on what the doctors had told us) and during their talk, Amy told her, ‘Mom, I just love Vince SO much!’ I can’t seem to recall what the comment was in specific reference to, but we had many talks about her not wanting to die and leave me. Amy and I had our share of issues throughout our marriage, but God continually drew us together. Building our love for each other upon His foundation and through His love for the two of us until, with Him as the center, we could withstand any storm. And this got me to thinking; maybe the earlier tests of our relationship, hardships we endured and spats we had, were allowed in order to strengthen our love and commitment to each other, so that we might both be prepared for the final storm.
Oh, how I wish we could have had more time together…just a day, even an hour. To listen to her voice…hold her hand…run my fingers through her hair.
For the love of Amy - V
# posted by Vince @ 8:11 PM 
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Vince,
I am so very thankful that the Lord graciously allowed , Amy to be able to be @ h*me!! She had desired that so much !!
Vince, thanks sooo much for allowing Randy+ I
to be apart of her last days/hours!!! I shall forever
treasure being w/my friend ! Remember her wanting to get up + see if there was anybody up to visit with? :) What an absolute honor, to eye witness my brother loving his beloved,Amy into the arms of Jesus!!!!
.... 'till Jesus reunites you+ Amy on the other side; God Bless You,Vince....you'e truly My Hero! ;) Denise
I am so very thankful that the Lord graciously allowed , Amy to be able to be @ h*me!! She had desired that so much !!
Vince, thanks sooo much for allowing Randy+ I
to be apart of her last days/hours!!! I shall forever
treasure being w/my friend ! Remember her wanting to get up + see if there was anybody up to visit with? :) What an absolute honor, to eye witness my brother loving his beloved,Amy into the arms of Jesus!!!!
.... 'till Jesus reunites you+ Amy on the other side; God Bless You,Vince....you'e truly My Hero! ;) Denise
# posted by 
: 10:33 PM, December 13, 2006
: 10:33 PM, December 13, 2006
Vince,
When you said..."maybe the earlier tests of our relationship, hardships we endured and spats we had, were allowed in order to strengthen our love and commitment to each other, so that we might both be prepared for the final storm..." it made me recall the truth of Ephesians 4:32 (Message paraphrase) which says,"Be gentle with one another, sensitive. Forgive one another as quickly and thoroughly as God in Christ forgave you."
You and Amy modeled such a mature perspective on how understanding fully God's forgiveness should impact all of our relationships, but especially in marriage. Thanks for walking the walk so transparently and sincerely, as it does impact all of those around you!!!
We love you each of you.
When you said..."maybe the earlier tests of our relationship, hardships we endured and spats we had, were allowed in order to strengthen our love and commitment to each other, so that we might both be prepared for the final storm..." it made me recall the truth of Ephesians 4:32 (Message paraphrase) which says,"Be gentle with one another, sensitive. Forgive one another as quickly and thoroughly as God in Christ forgave you."
You and Amy modeled such a mature perspective on how understanding fully God's forgiveness should impact all of our relationships, but especially in marriage. Thanks for walking the walk so transparently and sincerely, as it does impact all of those around you!!!
We love you each of you.
# posted by : 9:54 AM, December 14, 2006
: 9:54 AM, December 14, 2006
Vince,
I to do wish for another day with her and to just chat with her. Amy and I never had a problem with talking. I could talk to her for hours. I miss her so much I feel that my heart will never stop hurting. They say that time heals the pain. Not sure if that is true. I am looking so forward to seeing all of you this weekend. You and the kids are all I have left of her. God I miss her. Love you tons and the kids as well. Bridge
I to do wish for another day with her and to just chat with her. Amy and I never had a problem with talking. I could talk to her for hours. I miss her so much I feel that my heart will never stop hurting. They say that time heals the pain. Not sure if that is true. I am looking so forward to seeing all of you this weekend. You and the kids are all I have left of her. God I miss her. Love you tons and the kids as well. Bridge
# posted by : 10:44 AM, December 14, 2006
: 10:44 AM, December 14, 2006
Thankyou for sharing Vince. I thought about all of you yesterday. The time seems to have flown by and yet it seems like yesterday she was asking me "How are you, girlfriend?"
Love, hugs, prayers
to you and the kids.
Debby Penzkover
Love, hugs, prayers
to you and the kids.
Debby Penzkover
# posted by : 4:59 PM, December 14, 2006
: 4:59 PM, December 14, 2006
Vince,
You are living proof of one who epitomizes Psalm 73:28 (New Living Translation) which says, "But as for me, how good it is to be near God! I have made the Sovereign Lord my shelter, and I will tell everyone about the wonderful things you do."
May we all cling to God during this time of deep pain and missing Amy so much...
Much love to all
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You are living proof of one who epitomizes Psalm 73:28 (New Living Translation) which says, "But as for me, how good it is to be near God! I have made the Sovereign Lord my shelter, and I will tell everyone about the wonderful things you do."
May we all cling to God during this time of deep pain and missing Amy so much...
Much love to all
# posted by : 7:56 PM, December 14, 2006
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